Slightly Stressed Out

Two Reasons:

a) I put off a bunch of things until the last minute… again… Some people I know say that it’s the hallmark of the graphic designer… As a whole we tend to procrastinate.

Sometimes I’ll get my shit together and maintain good habits… good posture… for up to a few months at a time. But then I become kind of a workaholic and one day I will predictably jump out of my seat and say “fuck this… i need a break…” and then I’ll go back to “living in the present moment” for an undetermined amount of time… spend money foolishly… forget about planning altogether… end up cutting things way too close… And see I put quotes around “living in the present moment” because that’s not really what’s happening… that’s just what I’m telling myself. If I was truly living in the present moment I would be mindful of all things with a smile on my face… wheras what I do is more akin to shirking responsibility and sticking my head in the sand.

See if I could just get in the habit of living moderately… truly living in the present moment while knowing when to call it quits and go relax… then maybe i wouldn’t burn out and need to vacillate from one side of sanity to the other in order to be content.

b) My mother is insane and bent on destroying us all.

That is all.